CS Lewis once said that "grief is like the sky, it covers everything." In recent weeks, our family has found that this is so very true. It seems that there is no right or wrong way to travel this path of grief. I have created this blog in hopes that some day we will be able to look back on our journey and see written proof that our great God never leaves us. God is good all the time.

Celebrating Laynee

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Tuesday, February 2, 2010

The First Time Ever I Saw Her Face

Although Jalayne's birthday has come and gone, I cannot help remembering that it was three years ago on February 2nd that we received the phone call telling us of her existence.  On February 3rd, 2007we saw this beautiful face for the very first time.  I recall the whirlwind of events of that day in very fine detail.  I recall the feeling of overwhelm as I contemplated adding another special needs child to our family.   I even recall being a bit afraid to look at her for the first time.  I remember sitting in the rocking chair of the NICU with tears dripping onto her blankets.  My hands shook as I dressed her, I really couldn't believe I was taking this baby home with me.  What was I thinking, was I insane, had I lost my mind?  I recall the cold air as I buckled her into the car seat for the very first time.   But more than anything I remember the awe on my children's face when I carried her, still strapped in her car seat, into our home. So tiny, only five pounds and so, so perfectly formed.   I can still picture them kneeling up on the barstools and sitting on the countertop so they could see her better in those first moments. I had no way of knowing the profound impact this child would have on our life.  I didn't know how much joy she would bring.  I didn't know how much sorrow she would bring. 
What I did know, from the very moment I laid eyes on her, was that I loved her, that I would always love her.  I did, I do and I will.............always love my Laynee Grace


  1. Karol,
    It seems like yesterday, the first time we seen
    Laynee. Grandpa Glueck had told us how perfect
    and precious she was-and he wasn't joking; she
    was so beautiful! Her little head was shaped
    perfectly, her skin color was beautiful - It's
    no wonder she was called the Prettiest Girl in
    the World, and as an angel she is still the
    prettiest girl in heaven in our eyes.

  2. She was a beautiful little tiny bundle. So snuggly looking. :o)

  3. She was absolutely a beautiful, perfect little girl. HUGS