CS Lewis once said that "grief is like the sky, it covers everything." In recent weeks, our family has found that this is so very true. It seems that there is no right or wrong way to travel this path of grief. I have created this blog in hopes that some day we will be able to look back on our journey and see written proof that our great God never leaves us. God is good all the time.

Celebrating Laynee

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Friday, August 24, 2012

Feeling Irate!!!!

It's a little thing..... I know that.......I shouldn't feel so angry about something so ignificant.......I know that too.  But I am angry!  I am so angry!

I stopped at Laynee's grave today.  As I pulled up I noticed that her backpack was unzipped and hanging open.  As I went to zip it back up I realized that the crayon and markers that I put there for her were gone.  Someone STOLE her crayons and markers!!!!!!

I know that it is irrational to get so upset over this.  I have thought of every imaginable possiblity that might make me less angry.  Things like....."maybe whoever took them does not know the story of Laynee, how much she is loved and missed."  But her grave site tells the story of a little girl loved and lost.  The very fact that she is there tells a story, not to mention that her grave is adorned with many trinkets telling of our love for her.  I've reasoned (and this is most likely the correct reasoning)
that it was likely a child.  I see children playing at her sight all the time, while their parents walk around the cemetary.  They play with the pinwheels and stuffed animals and I always imagine Laynee smiling down at them from heaven.  But if it was a child why would their parents not tell them to put the things back?

I am so angry.  I am angry that someone stole from Laynee's grave...........Who does something like that?!?!!!??  But more than anything I am angry that she is gone, that her body lies beneath the ground, that I have reason to visit the cemetary on a regular basis. 


  1. Karol, you have every right to be angry over this. I would be angry too. I will say a prayer for you...may God comfort you and give you peace, dear one!

  2. This is not a small thing.

    I understand why you are angry.

    It makes all the sense in the world to me.

    You are right - even if it WAS a child, why would their parent not say, "PUT THOSE BACK. NOW."

    Angry, too,

    Cathy in Missouri

  3. That is INFURIATING. I cannot believe it. This make me sad and angry. I am SO sorry. I am so sorry that this adds to your pain when that is the LAST thing you need...

  4. I stopped by her grave last night and it was still zipped closed. When I was there a few weeks ago and added pinwheels, three little girls ran up and started talking about all the cool stuff left for Layne. One pulled a pinwheel out of ground and one of them pointed to her and said that sometimes she takes toys home and my mom makes her bring it back. They ran back to their house where there were 4-5 adults standing/sitting in the yard. I would think that the first time that she brought something home she would not be allowed to play there again. Love you and hope she returns them.

  5. I would like to think that Layne came and grabbed them and is going to draw you a picture. Keep a lookout for that picture.....