Today, as I was cleaning up my gallery of photos in my cell phone, many of which are of black nothingness, apparently taken inside my pocket or someplace equally as unintentional, I came across a few pictures our sweet Laynee grace. I knew they were there, they have been there for a very long time. Still, seeing them, seeing her takes my breath away every time. Today was no different.
Since I am about due for a new phone, mine is rather old and doesn't hold it's charge very well anymore, I suddenly became determined that the pictures had to be in a safer place. The idea of losing even one priceless picture of her is chilling. Being the not so techno savvy person that I am, I had no idea how to get the pictures off my phone. A quick text to my friend RK, solved that problem in a hurry. For the first time I saw these pictures in full screen and............well..............there are no words, she is so beautiful, so happy, so radiant, so LAYNEE. I was stuck, for quite some time, somewhere between laughing and crying. I have to laugh because even I cannot deny that orneriness positively oozes from her squinty eyes and big smile. At the same time I cry because I love and miss her so desperately.
This particular picture was taken while we were on vacation the summer before the accident and she spent a day at my brother's house. It doesn't matter that I did not take the picture or that I wasn't even there. That's my Laynee, her smile, her joy, her radiance.
I would give every single earthly possession I have to see that face, kiss those cheeks, hear that laughter just one more time.
Come quickly Lord