My dear sweet Laynee Grace,
It's Thanksgiving today, another one without you. Today in church, emotions warred within me. My heart is grateful for so much but thankfulness walks hand in hand with the hurt that runs deep inside of me. On this day, I choose to focus on thanksgiving rather than the hurting.
I am thankful that you, my sweet girl, are my daughter. Nothing can change that, not even death. I will be your mommy forever and that brings me so much joy. I am thankful for this sweet little boy in my arms right now, he does not fill the void that your abscence leaves, but he does fill my aching arms. I am thankful for family - your daddy, your brothers and sisters and for so many friends who are loyal and true to us. I am thankful for this wonderful country that we live in and the foundation that it was founded upon. But more than anything else in the world, I am thankful for the gift of salvation and eternal life. Because of this, I know that I will hold you again someday. And that, dear Laynee, that is what gets me through each painful day without you.
Happy Thanksgiving. I LOVE YOU.
CS Lewis once said that "grief is like the sky, it covers everything." In recent weeks, our family has found that this is so very true. It seems that there is no right or wrong way to travel this path of grief. I have created this blog in hopes that some day we will be able to look back on our journey and see written proof that our great God never leaves us. God is good all the time.