This morning as I lay listening to the quietness of my house, before the world came alive with a new day, I reflected on this season of thanksgiving. Our third thanksgiving without Laynee. I felt a great sense of sadness as I realized that, as of tomorrow, we will have spent more thanksgivings without her than we had with her. Our last Thanksgiving with her is one that I will cherish forever, I am grateful that it was spent away from home, on the beach, so that it does not run together with all of the other Thanksgiving holidays. Laynee was beautiful then, as always.
The sadness remains, deep and profound, but today I choose to be thankful for every moment that we had with her. Every smile, every hug, every beautiful moment with her was a treasure. Perhaps most of all, I am thankful the life lessons, the love lessons that only Laynee could teach us.
Happy Thanksgiving Laynee Grace. I love you sweet baby girl.
Wow. Sometimes I just can't get over how cute she was... And that last picture, it just looks like the best silly kind of mischief on her little face. :o)
ReplyDeleteYou beautiful beach babe! Radiating such joy. Shining that same joy down on you, through your dark, missing her, days. Wishing so desperately she was here with you all. Wishing is so. Love and prayers form California.
ReplyDeleteThat tongue! That smile and that face! Laynee clearly raced into life with her whole heart, every second.
ReplyDeleteLord, there are definitely a lot of things I will not understand until Heaven. There are no answers down here...other than: we trust You.
And life still hurts. Too much.
I wish she was still here, even knowing that There is perfect.
Missing her with you,
Cathy in Missouri
Karol--I look at your sweet pictures of your beautiful baby girl and my heart aches for you as it did when I first found your blog over two years ago. I feel the pain, raw and fresh. I hope you are finding peace in this holiday season. Sending you and your family many blessings.
ReplyDeletexoxo