We also decided that each year that she is away from us we will purchase a special ornament to remember her. This year's ornament has an angel carved into it and says "keeping you close to our heart." Earlier in the season we were given an ornament with Jesus holding an infant with the inscription"Safe in the Arms of Jesus." We also received 3 ornaments as gifts today. One was a white angel with gold wings. My sister Rita and family brought us an ornament reminding us that she is "spending Christmas with Jesus." and my niece Ashley brought an adorable one that is bright pink feathers made into angel wings for our "prettiest angel" So it begins that we collect ornaments that help us to remember our beautiful angel. I never imagined that I'd ever have to establish traditions like this.
We will flying to Florida tomorrow. I truly am looking forward to the trip, yet something about this feels inherently wrong, as though I'm leaving a part of my soul behind. It feels like I should be packing for her. The truth is that she's probably closer to us now than she ever was while she was on this earth. So why is it that she feels so far away?
The ornament that Rita gave us had a poem with it. This is the same poem that was at the preschool Christmas Program .
Merry Christmas From Heaven
I still hear the songs,
I still see the lights
I still feel your love on cold wintery nights
I still share your hopes and all of your cares
I'll even remind you to please say your prayers
I just want to tell you, you still make me proud
you stand head and shoulders above all the crowd
Keep trying each moment, to stay in His grace
I came here before you to help set your place
You don't have to be perfect all of the time
He forgives you the slip, if you continue the climb
To my family and friends
Please be thankful today
I'm still close beside you
In a new special way
I love you all dearly
Now don't shed a tear
Cause I'm spending my
Christmas with Jesus this year