CS Lewis once said that "grief is like the sky, it covers everything." In recent weeks, our family has found that this is so very true. It seems that there is no right or wrong way to travel this path of grief. I have created this blog in hopes that some day we will be able to look back on our journey and see written proof that our great God never leaves us. God is good all the time.
Tuesday, January 26, 2010
And Lions Roar
Just as Laynee's entrance into our life made no sense, neither does her death. It simply does not make sense that Laynee be taken from us. We have so say in this matter of death, no one asked us, there was no choice. Still, God roars, he asks us to trust him. I cannot begin to imagine how even a God as big a mine can bring something good or beautiful from the death of our sweet baby. I'm not entirely sure I know how to trust him in this. It seems like most often when He asked me to trust him there was something tangible that he wanted me to do. This time he has given me nothing that I can do with my hands or my mind. He is asking me to do nothing but sit and trust him. I am not geared that way, I am an action person, I need to DO something. My lion is roaring and God says sit? SIT? Are you serious God? Just SIT? I don't know HOW to SIT!!! I have a visual of God actually chuckling at my horror of being told to sit still. I can't audibly hear God, but my heart and soul know that his answer is "Sit, Stand, whatever, I don't care, but there is nothing you can do. You must trust me." Be still and know that I am God Psalms 46:10
I don't understand Jalayne's death but I do trust him. I know that my God is good. I know that he can "work all things together for good to them that trust him, to them that are called according to his purpose." Romans 8:28 My lion is roaring. Okay God I'll SIT, but please don't ask me to chase a real life lion.