Today Jamee will be running in the stae cross country. It breaks my heart that Laynee can't be with us. The few meets (Jamee's and Jade's) that she did get to go to she loved cheering for the runners. She didn't know the Tremont runners from all the rest so she tirelessly cheered and clapped for every runner. At one meet in Morton she was clapping at a time when there were no Tremont runners around and looked up at me as if to say "why aren't you cheering." I'm all for cheering everyone on, but I didn't have the valiant stamina, like she did. to keep cheering the entire time.
At another meet for the middle school, there was a young runner from Galesburg sitting on the ground, tired and sweaty from her run. Laynee walked right up to her and gave her a big hug. The poor girl had no idea who Laynee was and I doubt she knows that she was given such a gift that day. That is who and what Laynee was. LOVE, pure and simple. She was no respector of persons, she just loved them all.
Laynee would have been Jamee's biggest fan today. I have to think she's watching her from heaven. She'll likely be clapping her hands and yelling "aaaaahhhhh" because she doesn't know what else to say. And I'm sure that in spirit Jamee will get a Laynee hug.
CS Lewis once said that "grief is like the sky, it covers everything." In recent weeks, our family has found that this is so very true. It seems that there is no right or wrong way to travel this path of grief. I have created this blog in hopes that some day we will be able to look back on our journey and see written proof that our great God never leaves us. God is good all the time.